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I am having a rough day for some reason. I had to do a Magnesium Citrate Cleanse today. Recently, I have been having some digestive issues and the first step is “cleaning out” which totally sucks. Here goes over sharing… I have been having bouts of pain and constipation coupled with pain and diarrhea. I just want to be able to eat and feel normal not have to run to the bathroom in pain after meals, sometime I am fine after others.

In the midst of today after drinking this Magnesium Citrate concoction I have been really emotional. I have read about “The Second Brain” and we all have seen the affects hunger can have on people (Hanger). All that comes from the gut. Too much science for me to quote in this blog as I am too lazy to call up the research but you can Bing it yourself. But I have been emotional all day. Crying for no reason! My body is obviously lacking serotonin or some other neurotransmitters are reacting and I am having emotional response.

I just want this ship righted! I want to be able to eat and not fear not being close to a bathroom and I want my moods to regulate. And I don’t want to have to work too hard at that! Why can’t I just be NORMAL?! Why do I have to deal with this? I have ADD, forgetfulness, disorganization and now pain and pooping at really inconvenient times! I can’t even eat healthy to void this as it seems salads and veggies are just as bad as greasy foods but not always…So annoying! I have tried to follow what is causing this digestive uproar but I can’t figure it out!

Sometimes you just need to cryWhat I have figured out is that this cleanse today has created emotions in me that I can’t understand or control. I really have no reason to be sad or depressed but have been crying for no reason. The Hubs got home to intercept a crying spell. He was dumbfounded not knowing what to do or say. He just held me while I cried. He carefully did say, “I don’t know what is going on” “I mean you have no reason to be sad, I am not mad or you or holding anything against you.” I said “I know, I honestly don’t know where this is all coming from” it is just there! I am crying and don’t know why! So I will just let myself cry I figure that will help if I just let myself be where I am. I am emotional, I don’t know why. So who cares, I know that I need to cry so I will just let it go. I will accept myself where I am and try not to judge or label my feelings and/or emotions and just let them flow.

I hope that this “cleanse” helps or at least helps get me on track to figure out what the hell is going on with my body! And leads to a solution of why I am gaining weight, having inconvenient digestive issues and weird emotions. Hopefully soon I will get answers but for now I will just say today was a rough day but I am thankful I have The Hubs there for me! I just love him!