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Could I have a Bakery?, I don't know what I want, I Need Cake Baking/Decorating Therapy, I want to be a family mom, Over Scheduled Mom, what is really best for my family?
Today, as I parked at dance, I looked over at the empty bakery and thought, hmm…I wonder if I could open that up again and make it work? I need a business partner with capital, another bakery partner maybe two. One to bake breads and stuff and one to help decorate cookies and stuff. Then in the evenings we could do wine and cocktails… I know this is a pipe dream but I am feeling overwhelmed and not where I want to be so I am dreaming of something else that would stimulate me and inspire me not depress me with the reality that is.
My reality right now is I work two jobs. One I trained for and decided I wanted to be in high school the other a job that is easy and fun and makes pretty good money but I have to work at night when I don’t want to. I like to be with my family. I do dance a couple nights too so between working a couple nights, dancing a couple nights and then date night with the hubs I am never home! I don’t know what to do. Massage is hard on my body and unpredictable, bartending is easier on the body and also unpredictable but I work at night and on weekends. I just wish I could figure out what I want to do. Or how to get there.
I want to help my family financially, I want to be there for my family and be home when they are home! I miss them all! I want to buy my husband a car or at least make it so we can afford the payments and dance and sports fees without him stressing. I think we are almost there. But I want to be mom to my family to. The kind that has dinner on the table and smiles all around at mealtime. Not one stressing about having tobget here or there or forgetting that we already have something planed and scheduling something else! I am a bit down tonight.
I need to rally and be happy and exciting when the Hubs gets home so the Little bit of time we have can be fun and connecting and loving and everything he wants it to be!
I will try to be a little more positive tomorrow!
#Everyday2015
there that I want to see and that there will still be food there! The event runs 5-11 and the show starts at 6 and I think it is supposed to be an hour and a half. So I am thinking we could probably get to the banquet by 8:30 or 9:00. Then Saturday we have a bazaar fundraiser that I am supposed to be sewing some hand warmer covers to sell for fundraising for dance but I think this year we will skip it. Our fundraiser for dance is me working two jobs! But I like doing crafty things so it is sad that I don’t really have time for it right now.
It has been a rough season. I have spent a lot of hours trying to get everyone all that they need in regards for gear and it has been a struggle since I took on two jobs this year vs no jobs last year. I am so happy and cannot express how excited and accomplished I feel. I know it is just gear but it is shoulder pads, helmets, practice pants, game pants, knee pads, belts girdles….. for 250 or so players! It is not exactly and easy task! Yay me! Great job SKPW! Also, the equipment is more organized than ever! I am so thankful for my husband’s help. I tell him, I want this organized or this year I want you on helmets. We had some coaches, some parents, not too many people but very quality people and I was so happy that they were all there! (I am pretty sure none of them read my blog but I want to give them credit, they were awesome!)