It was Seahawks game day! We got a win! It was the first Sunday away game that I did not have to work. It felt right! I was so happy to spend the day with my family and friends! We had a great time! Seahawks won! Great game today they played well the whole game!
As much fun I had today and even this whole weekend it has been clouded with a bit of stress. I have to address it at the office. There are some changes happening at my office and I am feeling a little overwhelmed. I have wanted to sit down with the boss and chat about a few things but I have been to chicken to do so. Now things are coming to the surface and need to be addressed! “Please, Ruby, don’t chicken out. Stand up for yourself and be bold. Ask for what you want, how can you get what you want if you don’t ask. And nothing will change if you don’t speak up.” I have this really bad habit of not saying anything until I am way overwhelmed and it comes out harsh or bitchy or just plain not the way I wanted it to.
I want to ask for a raise, clarify schedules for me and the new massage therapist in the office, get some new supplies and make sure my role is defined and I know where I stand. I have considered asking about a partnership where I would take over or run the massage part of the business but I don’t know if I am ready for that or if I have time for that or if I could actually be a “partner”. But right now with the acute issues that have been arising lately I am wondering if that all is too much to address all at once. But I am just going to go for it. Problem is that I have a full schedule and I don’t know when I can actually meet with my boss. I guess I just have to see if he can meet me after work one day or maybe before work.
My stomach is in knots just writing this! I am about in tears and I haven’t even wrote my list/outline to keep me focused during said talk with the boss. He is not a scary guy I actually like him a lot and he has told me in the past that he wants to keep me happy all I have to do is tell him what I need. So why am I so nervous about this talk. I am scared that he will decide now he has another therapist that will be there anytime, I have time constrictions to get the kids from school and such, so I am worried that maybe he will decide he doesn’t need or want me. She is fresh out of school and eager to work so maybe more flexible than I but really I just need to stand up for what I want and be happy.
I don’t want to work two jobs, I want to do massage. I want to promote wellness to my clients. I want to be happy. Why does it have to be so hard?!
Anyway, I am going to try to sit with this Seahawks win and the awesome weekend I have had with my family and be happy because that is what makes me happy! I am going to go look at some sexy videos with the hubs and end the day with a little attitude adjustment!