I don’t know if you have noticed but I have not been writing as much lately. I want to be authentic. I do want to write everyday I want to inspire mom’s to be amazing and to love their life even when doing the not so fun stuff like washing clothes. I want to write about crazy shit and make you laugh and sometimes get your horny for your mate. I also want to encourage you and let you know you are not alone in your struggles so I share with you my struggles. Lately when I have been pushing hard to get in writing everyday just to write it was lacking in quality. I am giving myself some grace on some days to not write. I may write  a few days in a row so check back everyday! I will not go more than one day with out blogging. I miss it when I don’t do it. I just have to figure out how to get paid to be a blogger that way I can schedule it in my day and sacrifice something else for it and get paid…

So today I have had a bit of a roughish day! I was tired and dragging all day! Work went well but after my morning when the Girl came home from school she was crying and said “I’M NOT GOING TO DANCE MY HEAD HURTS EVEN TO JUST TO WALK!” It made me so sad. I could see on the outside and hear in her voice exactly how I feel when I have a headache. I hurt me to see my daughter having the same pain that I have experienced so much in my life. I did call the Doctor today the headaches have been coming a lot lately and I decided it was time to see the Doctor that treated her with her concussion over a year ago. I am worried about her. We did the hot foot bath cold wash cloth on head trick and it worked like a charm for a while… I feel for her my heart hurts and I am beginning to get a headache myself from thinking about it. I wish I could fix it! Then I worry, maybe if I was home more and could do massage on her more regularly or if she ate healthier, has she had enough water. What did I do to cause this?

It was tough! She didn’t dance and she came home early today. She ate some food took some ibuprofen drank some water and then it was time to get ready for bed and the boy came out and said he had a headache. A few weeks ago he had a bad headache and I struggled with the same feelings for him. I hope he doesn’t have a head ache problem like I always have! Then tonight it was “Really?!” “how long have you had a headache?” Is this just to get the attention the Girl has been getting? He said he has had a head ache since before school but didn’t want to tell me thinking he wouldn’t be able to go to baseball practice… What am I going to do? How can I fix my kids????

I don’t know what to do. I will try to continue my way as I have been doing my best. It is a struggle moms! It is a struggle! We are all doing all best! Keep up the good work Moms! We are doing the best we can and our families deserve our best and so do we! We got this!

LIfe is a beautiful struggle