Well recently emotionally I have been in a funk! I don’t know what it is but I have been sensitive lately. I cried for two hours yesterday. Maybe my psyche is just getting adjusted to my new lifestyle of working out regularly. Maybe I am missing the extra time in bed with the Hubs. Maybe I am just fucking crazy! I am leaning towards the latter.
I have been feeling lonely and under appreciated by the Hubs, but he has been sick. So I should give him a little slack and not take it so personal when he is tired and crashes right when we go to bed, before we have sex. He has been home mostly resting for the better part of the last week. I am just being a bit sensitive. I feel irritated with myself by that, but I do like to tell him how I feel. When I do we chat about it. Usually starts with a little yelling match and then ends with a solid conversation of him saying he does love me and want to be with me and me saying sorry for being so stupid and over sensitive! But the food thing is that we are not arguing forever like we would have a couple years ago. I still would like him to be able to be a little more understanding or empathetic but we are making progress.
Today was a better day. I didn’t have time for crazy head today. I had a busy day and then watched the boy in a scrimmage with his tournament baseball team. He pitched today, which is new for him. He did pretty well. He struck out two batters, buy his team behind him could get outs. The Boy there two innings, face 29 batters only walked 2, but 3 better got hit by pitch, so many errors they score like 20 runs on him. But he threw strikes! It was a good start!
Now the Hubs and I are headed out to date night. It would be nice if we could start a but earlier. We are committed to date night so we always go, we just wish we do something other than just eat and drink. We thought of going for a ferry ride but there is no ferry until 11:30 or so. For today our creativity is taking us to the next town over for some food and drinks. I love date night…gotta go participate!