Feel Good


Happy Titties Tuesday! It is carpet cleaning day at my house! I am not even wearing a titties shirt today but every Tuesday is Titties Tuesday, right? It is for me especially when you are packing around these DDDs…..

Anyway, getting the carpets cleaned today has made me realize that there is a lot of random clutter than needs to be gone through in this house. The house is pretty well put together and organized but small pieces of clutter have piled up around the edges and what great opportunity to get it out of here before putting it back after the carpets are clean!

Today I have spent some time marketing. I did my first Facebook live video! I think I had two viewers which I am okay with since I am super new and not super comfortable with everything yet. It was good. I applied my new makeup told why I was doing this side business and plugged my massage business. I enjoyed the live video. I just talked like there was someone right there next to me watching me put on my make up! A little tutorial while I was doing it as well. It was fun. Next time will be better, I just have to decide how often to do that. The marketing world is moving to video, so it’s time to get comfortable in front of the camera. Now, I just have to figure out how to incorporate video more in my massage business as well.

What are you doing for Titties Tuesday? We are doing a family night movie tonight and then after the movie and bed time for the kids, The Hubs and I will have to make a Titties Tuesday event! Maybe we can go out to our favorite Brewery and grab their Special Brew with Chocolate pairing before they run out. This will be our first date night since Dry January and I have to say, I am looking forward to it. I am hoping for less drama and relaxation from the Hubs.

In general, I am trying to get comfortable with my current existence right now. Massage is super slow so I am trying embracing the homemaker side. (Like getting the carpets cleaned and decluttering.) I was going to bake today but decided to clean up the kitchen first, then realized I didn’t have time to before I have to go get the Girl at school. I have been trying to honor myself and giving myself space to feel my emotions and figure out what it is that I want to do with me. Do I want to be business woman me and run a Private Practice or do I want to run this house. The business needs more attention from me if I am going to do that. I am not good at being a home maker.

Maybe this side business deal is what will work, however I am not a good sales person! I promote women feeling better and self care not a make up product, or any product, same thing with Essential Oils. I love to introduce things to women that might help their lives be healthier or prettier or make them feel better but to close that sale…that’s not me. I just want to make women feel better, have more confidence, love themselves better and in turn love their families better!

That is why I started this blog! The Hubs is right, for me it’s all about Feels. Fortunately, I have a husband who has a job that affords e eh opportunity that I can do that, have a job where I focus on the feels and don’t have to focus on the money. But money would help how can I get a well paying job and worry about the feels and not the logistics of money, sales and recruiting clients?….I will continue doing what I am doing right now, because today for the first time in a long time it feels right today.



Marketing Monday


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Today was a day of marketing! I am struggling in my business. Right now it is slow. I need more business. I don’t need a “full time” schedule but I need more than I am getting.

I am trying a new thing. I am offering a class that I have wanted to offer for a long time! It’s a couples massage class! Well, I have reserved the space and need to fill the room now so it’s time to get the marketing going and fill the class!

I also picked up another side business I am figuring out how to market that. Mostly because I want discounts in the products, I’m cheap!

It’s been a creative marketing Monday! So not too exciting here. I just need to figure out how to make money with this blog, get organized and write better, maybe I would be onto something! Anyway, it’s been a long day, hopefully you will get some content from me one of these days!

Enjoy Monday, go do your work, wash your clothes and have sex!


Superbowl Sunday


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I forgot I haven’t posted yet, so it seems irrelevant but here is Sunday’s post… Unedited too…

Happy Superbowl Day! I am at a dance convention worth the Gurl there has been the same dance studio drama for the last few years and nothing changes. I am frustrated because I said at this time last year that I would go through this again. I had meeting with teachers and studio owners only for the same dance drama to happen again with no changes, actually something’s have gotten worse. If we left the studio last year for a new one we would be settled and established at a new location right now I feel stuck my girl went from being excited about this dance weekend saying, “maybe I will come back next year”, to “this is probably my last year here.” It sucks when you pay for a service and are let down by the said service providers. I really want them to come through but lack of professionalism and disregard for what we as “customers” are paying for is disappointing to say the least. Obviously there are a lot of emotions and subjectivity involved because it involves our children, but flat out lies and disregard for structure is what is so frustrating! Anyway, I don’t want my daughter to lose her love for dance because the people who are supposed to be guiding her are more concerned with their own lives than they are with their business, this is a business trip for them (and the dancers and their families), they seem to be treating it like a vacation.

Anyway today is the happiest day of the year!!!! It is Superbowl!!! I just have to say The Patriots are so fucking good. Annoyingly good! I have always hated the Patriots! The one time I had then in the Superbowl for a win is when they fucking lost! I hate how Tom Brady got the spot from Drew Bledsoe the year Drew was injured and I have hated him ever since. However, I can’t deny how good they have been! I won’t say best of all time because I can’t! I don’t think Tom Brady is Better than Peyton Manning I don’t even want to hear the number of rings argument. How many does Dan Marino have? He is still a Hall of Fame QB but I’m a hater!

I’m going to End this with #GoHawks I am Seahawks fan to the core.


Dance Stress


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It is mid dance convention weekend. There has been some stress, but the Girl has danced her heart out and done amazing as have her teammates! The kids are doing an amazing job! I love watching her dance! We we’re there at 7am until 10:30pm I’m spent. I had a great day and will talk about my day more as the week goes on and when I am not so exhausted!



I forgot to blog earlier. It was day one of the girl’s competition weekend. Solo day! She did awesome. There was a part in the dance that she really put in the emotion. It was like she got comfortable and it finally clicked how to emote on stage it was beautiful! She scored a Gold medal which means she scored somewhere between 90-93 out of a possible 100. Pretty good kid! More on this tomorrow.

Call Your Friends


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Why people are sad

Happy Thursday!!! So, there has been no alcohol consumed on this First day of February but for some reason the mood in here is light and airy, unlike it has been for the last month of Dry January. It is a good day here in the Earl household! The boy is well into his first year of Middle School Wrestling and doing great. He has had 2 matches on Varsity as a 6th grader, 2 wins, 1 with a pin and one by points. Today was the points match. It was intense the kid he wrestled was good but the Boy was better. He kept focus was strong and held him off and managed to score more points even when the ref was screwed up in his scoring (he had to score a couple Take-downs before he even got points). I love watching him wrestle he is doing great!

The girl is gearing up for her first full convention and competition this weekend. She will be on her own deciding what she can do per her knee pain. She has taken today and tomorrow’s classes off to give a rest before the big weekend. I hope she can hold up with minimal set backs but sometimes when you rehab from injury and reintroduce sports and workload, that happens. This is the competition that she won their title award a few years ago. I love seeing her win awards and get scholarships but I try not to attach to much emotion to that, but it’s hard! I just love watching her dance!

Today I had a girlfriend come over for coffee. OMG was that refreshing and so enjoyable! I really needed that and I think the two of us need to do that more often! It is refreshing for the soul. Women need supportive women friends to support each other. I am so happy to have reconnected. I met this friend through my daughter. The Girl and this friends daughter have been friends since 2 grade or so. The daughter is a great friend to the Girl and the mom to me. I am just so thankful and grateful for her. We had a great visit talking about everything under the sun even gossiping about our kids and their drama with their friends. We made a “we won’t tell anyone what we talked about today” pact. I love that! I love my friend!

You need people! We all need people especially us ladies. We thrive on each other we process emotions by talking to each other and it helps us to not kill our husbands and children and for ourselves. Men need that sense of community to but they process things differently sorry guys but I don’t know how to tell you to do it, but grab a guy friend go shoot hoops or play golf, boys don’t seem to need to talk as much as ladies they need to move, work on cars together or play sports. Bottom line we all need community and friends. Ladies tend to compete with each other and get petty and find faults we need to stop that! I am thankful that this mom friend has never made me feel like we are competing, Nor has she judged me, she’s a good friend! Not to mention she has been available to take my kids to and from school and even take the boy at times and she doesn’t have boys. She is really a great gal pal and I love her and we all need more of them.

Go be with your community! Be friends with your spouse and Have a friend group to hang with and confide in together but also separate from your spouse. Being loved and being social is one thing that helps us thrive. We need connection sometimes we need to ask our friends over for coffee and stop waiting for them to call us!


XXX-Sext Up Some Interest-XXX


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if you never did you shouldHappy Hump Day! Today the Hump Day Challenge is to get out of your comfort level. Well for some of you, anyway. Since it’s the beginning of the year I want to ease into things sort of and get you communicating differently. The Hubs and I struggle hard core on communication. Believe it or not he is more sexually driven than me. He likes to have dirty talk and like sexual innuendo and most of the time I am stuck and confused about how to answer. Many times I respond with LOL or send back and emoji but he really wants is for me to get involved with the conversation. So, the best advice I can give you is PRACTICE and just do it. Write something back until if feels normal. The hump day challenge this week is, we are going to sext each other.

Start off by sending a text that says something like “I can’t wait to see your naked body” or some partners may want (or even need) more. Point is: Know your audience. If your man likes the details of how long and where you will put his member when you get home by all means go for it. However, if your wife is a stay at home mom who sometimes lets your kids play with her phone while she is shopping give her a warning first. “Hey, babe. Little man is not looking right?” she responds with “no” Then go ahead  with “when he goes to bed tonight I’m going to lick your luscious pussy until you beg for my cock” then she can respond back with a pic of her pussy (after she escapes from Little Man of course)

Sexting is a fine art. You have to be careful what and when you send texts and if your partner has a work phone probably don’t want to send it there…or maybe you do for some extra danger (but don’t say I didn’t warn you if negative backlash comes). I love the idea of sexting my spouse. He loves it. There’s not a whole lot of anything that can’t be cheered up with a nice shot of my tits… Get my smile in there too then he is set for the day!

If sending photos don’t worry about how you look there are not too many sexual positions you are in that you will think are attractive, but he will. I know it’s usually the girls who have that self consciousness. Men, some ladies love a good dick pic, however many of us can live without. My preference is to not get them. However, I love a good six pack paired with  boxer briefs… I love my husbands smile and I love a guy in sunglasses. My point is that we women are a little harder to understand and please, so do your homework and find out what your gal likes before sending the dick pic.

Your hump day challenge today is to sext up your lover! Give them a story or just a short tease what ever you feel like and make sure you know it is something they are into. The point is to start a playful conversation that leads to foreplay that leads to sex that leads to two orgasms!


Date Night Fun


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Happy Tuesday Date Night!!! I have missed date nights. Since being on Dry January the Hubs has not wanted to do date night because our date nights usually consist of going to a bar. He is not into going to a bar and not drinking. So tonight we planned a sober date night! We only have 2 more Dry January days but, still…

We are off to Castles Megastore for more Lube to start off the night. They are open until 10pm so we can make it there after practices.

Then we are going to see Greatest Showman. Some go out for dinner and a movie, we go get lube and a movie…Trial reviews coming, we bought 3 different lubes to try and some other sample thingy. It was some sort of stimulation cream, ‘Plump’ for him and something you put on your G-Spot for me. More details in a review to come later…

Back to date night, no more phones tonight!


There is no wrong art


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find and lose yourselfToday is another day at convention with the Girl. Last night she performed her solo for the first time. The solo that she didn’t want me to see it was all a surprise. I loved it, I loved the costume (except would add some rhinestones to the straps but she wants nothing to do with that!) She got some really great critique from one of the instructors here at the convention. She did great if I critiqued it (which I have not, I am trying to let the professionals do it) I would say get more emotionally into the dance. However, in talking to her she said she messed up a couple parts and felt that she did terrible. I looked pretty good so I know she is a critic of herself so that kind of showed only because she was thinking through it and only I could tell because well, I am her mom. I am glad I made her perform it here to go once through it before she competes next week!
Right now, I am watching Tap. The girl is taking tap off since her injury was her gastric which is a calf muscle and tapping works the calf muscle a lot. They are dancing to a song called “This Is Me” from the Greatest Showman. I am loving this song. My favorite line is “I make no apologies, This is me” I want to live this in my life more. I want my kids to live this way. Live out loud and make no apologies!
That’s part of dance and art in general! One purpose of art is to express of feelings our emotions. Or at least for a place to put our emotions. We put ourselves in a dance we do what the choreographer tells us to. But in dance we bring our life out own emotions. The choreographer saw a picture or had a thought of what they want that dance to look like or feel like and the dancers takes it applies their own experience and transforms it into…. well, ART! This is why I love dance, the performer may bring one thing that the choreographer did not intend but in that moment both emotions are realized along with the emotion and interpretation of the audience! Whatever you feel when you see art is right even if it was not the intended emotions or experience. Nothing is wrong in the world of art…it’s heaven!
I love how you can watch a performance and be inspired to grow, express, love, move or just be loud. You can be the performer and go to the darkest place in your world and get it out and at the end someone saw it and thought it was beautiful even when for you, it came from your ugly place. That’s where the inspiration happens. Like a phoenix our of the ashes of loneliness comes the most beautiful love song. All it takes is getting to the core, you, dancing, from that place that no one sees. Yet even when you dance from that place, they see your most vulnerable piece of you coming out in the safety of dance but they may still not see you they see themselves…that is what makes art of dance so beautiful and gorgeous!
Here this is where transformation happens! Be you be real dance like no one is watching because no one really sees you, they see the deepest most personal and beautiful part of you. They see you for who you are, but they decide who you are and that is okay it doesn’t change you because you are, or your art is who or what they need you to be. That is okay, that is what makes it beautiful!!

What Was I Thinking?


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don't forget you love danceI really don’t know what I was thinking when I thought that I would blog during a dance convention. The Girl is at her first convention of the season. She has been injured so she missed the convention part of the last one her team did. She has sat out 2 of the classes so far because of pain, but is now in the last class of the day which is Hip Hop. I love watching her dance and I love watching these instructors teach. I brought a book to read, my Surface to blog and of course there is always the social media distraction on my phone, and all my mom friends. I really don’t need any distraction! I would be quite content just watching!

I am enjoying watching the Girl dance and sad that she is still having some knee pain. I hope that she can overcome this and dance to her hearts content witout pain. I want her to enjoy  her hobby. Not to mention she is so good, I want the world to see her!

I am super excited that I get to watch her solo tonight. She has sheltered me from seeing any of it. She chose a song from the newest Linkin Park album. She was selecting songs and this was my favorite of the top three. She of course didn’t select it because of that, if she knew it was my fave, she probably would have probably taken it off her list. (She is so much a teenage girl right now, “don’t let mom see I am having fun and no way will I enjoy something she suggests.”) She is dancing to “Nobody Can Save Me” She was listening to it today and I almost started crying just listening to the words and everything that is that song; What happend with Chester, emotions and her dancing to it! OMG so powerful. That whole album is so emotional. It was the last one before Chester Bennington committed suicide he wrote at least part of it for Chris Cornell who also committed suicide. I have listened to that album different since Chester passed away and have thought, “it sounds like a really detailed and long suicide note.”

Then my crazy mom head goes…she’s not depressed or having suicidal thoughts is she? Am I there for her enough? Is this teenage girl attitude really normal or a warning sign? It is  normal, right? I think so. I am doing my best to let her be who she is. There is fine balance, I hope to continue to walk the tight rope, that she likes me enough to come to me in times she needs someone but hates me enough to be a normal teenager…I let her be who she is, I love that girl. She talks about her feelings but she holds a lot in too. I think dance helps her ‘express’ herself but sometimes she holds back especially when I am watching. I can’t wait to see her solo and I hope she is going to put her emotion into it and I think it will be phenomenal!

I am really enjoying watching her learn and get into the new moves she is learning and having to adjust to protect that injured knee but as I watch her I can tell she is loving it. In her movements she is happy. It is so refreshing to watch. What is fun about these routines is that they can learn them and just dance. They don’t have to worry about being judged or performing it, they get to just have fun with it! They need more time like this to just dance for the love of dance.

Anyway, I am going back to watching dance! This is what I pay for right?!