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Wedding flowers

26 Thursday Oct 2017

Posted by in Love, Marriage, Marriage is hard, Marriage is work

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These are my wedding flowers. I walked down the isle 17 years ago holding these flower proudly in my hands looking at my best friend at the end of the isle. These flowers are significant. I have saved them in this vase that I received as a wedding gift.

17 years later, they look tired and old and dead but there is something about them. I don’t want to toss them. When I look any them I reminisce about that day about the planning that lead up to that day. About all the flowers the Hubs had got me in Corsages before that day and since then the flowers he brings me home, which is why I chose the color I chose. Those flowers represent the day we chose to be together for better or worse. Through the years these flowers have seen better but even in there old tired (some may say dead) state there is a beauty that I just can’t throw away!

I don’t want to be tired old or dead in my relationship. I know I’m tired but on bad days maybe when the Hubs and I aren’t in the “for better” moments I look at their ugliness and think just throw it away! I have grabbed them in anger and frustration, probably trying to clean up clutter that we were arguing about, and thought “why even save these they are dead!” But I can’t bring myself to throw them away!

In that moment, like today, I look at the ugly dead flowers and remember the beauty they once were They inspire me to see past sadness of how they look and cherish the beauty they represent.

Maybe I should make this vase the fresh flowers vase that I keep fresh flowers in, it takes maintenance to keep beautiful fresh flowers and cycling out the old but these flowers aren’t going anywhere. Just like my marriage I did not say “I do” to just the beauty. I said “I do” to all of it. That includes the ugly the sad and tired. I am happily married because of that decision and those words that day. Not everyday is happy, today has not been a happy day. That doesn’t mean I’m not happy.

These flowers are beautiful in there way and I am happy to have them. It is a reminder that things need maintenance and marriages need maintenance to stay beautiful but there is always beauty in love. These flowers should probably go, according to some clutter expert but for now they will stay. I will hold on to this reminder that even in ugly stages love conquers and may the best shine through. May you be loved.

#Loveconquers

Proud Mommy Day

31 Sunday Jan 2016

Posted by in Dance, Kids, Mom Stuff

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The Girl had her second day of convention today. She stated at her Grandma’s house last night so she would have a bed close. For the last 4 or 5 classes she wanted to quit. She kept saying I do t want to so the next class and I just told her you are going to keep going! I didn’t let her quit.

Lucky for her the last class was her favorite style (Lyrical) taught by her new favorite instructor. She pushed through only because I made her. I reminded her that if she would have given up, she wouldn’t have been able to do that. She wouldn’t be able to say she finished.

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Each masterclass they teach them a routine and as the 45 minutes to hour goes on they start to perform or show off their routine and perform it. Today, she performed in a big way! She put on a smile (a fake one sometimes) and tried to accomplish the style taught to her. Even when she didn’t want to be there she did a pretty good job faking it. I did think there were times she could have given it more effort but she really pushed through and achieved today. I am proud.

Her solo this year is to Linkin Park’s Iridescent which is a song about over coming. It says “When your lost in desperation, you build up hope but failures all you know. Remember all that sadness and frustration and Let it go.” The “let it go” part is where you over come. I explained to her today that that is what she did today. She overcame those demons in her head saying to stop it’s too hard. She pushed through and finished. There is nothing like the feeling of getting through it and finishing. She has not faced a lot of devastating circumstances so it can be tough to show that in her dance. Today I told remember this today you “let go” of the lain and tiredness and when you did that you dancing was beautiful. When you didn’t, when you were thinking you were too tired to keep going, you could perform.

Every class today she danced, she performed, it was the best I have ever seen her perform bit it made me proud she was trying to put it out there! She is growing and learning right before my eyes.

I have asked how do you teach a child to”push through” Answer: you don’t teach that, you just don’t let them give up!

#Everyday2016